#damn i wish i were on benzos right now to slow down this shit show

[bisexual-berry]

One of the worst things about having an obsessive brain is that it’s not just the life-ruining intrusive thoughts, even when I’m doing “well” if something upsets me a little bit more it’s gonna be playing on my brain 24/7. It’s the thing someone said, why they might have said it, what it means in the grand scheme of things in my life and in that particular relationship, what I should say about it, how I should feel about it. I’ll do an entire analysis of the situation, and then when I’m done I’ll go do something else and the second I get distracted my brain will go “hey remember that thing that happened? Better analyse the whole thing again!” Why? Just cause. Just cause it says so. Just to solve it, whatever the fuck that means. Just to close that mental cycle and get that sense of “there, it’s done”, just so my brain can immediatly go “but, is it?”